Once you love someone they stay in your heart forever and ever

They say, “Once you love someone they stay in your heart forever and ever…”

At first this was just a statement out of some book. But no one has escaped the golden arrow, it hits you when you think you are untouched by the feeling; love. This is when cupid takes aim and hits you right at the heart. There is no bloodshed, but what this arrow brings with it are emotions, love, lust happiness and sadness. It brings smile, tears and pain.

I remember the eyes, the tinkle in them I still see the words they spoke, her lips murmured, “I love you.” There was no voice, yet it was the verse that filled rainbow in my sky.

I never fell in love, I rose in love, I dreamt of watching those eyes each morning, serene like the dew on the green leaf, I wanted to share the tears of laughter, just to say, I will always be there for you. I wanted to say, just look around, I will always be there for you.

Her eyes made me paint my heart red, each day the sleep was like hibernating for the best moments, waiting endlessly to see her each day was like filling the heart with fresh air, her smell her hair, her walk, her talk they all were so perfect, they were to me, after all she was the world for me, as I was for her.

I made a promise I will smile for her see the new world through her eyes…I wanted to listen to her endlessly, I had so much more to learn, learning in love was for real. Each day was a new lesson. With her around me, I was strong, I felt like home. I realized I have got the dream I wanted, and will never let it go.

I wanted to wakeup each day, with her by my side, I wanted my arm to be her pillow. In the night when I could take her in my arm, run my fingers through her hairs, curl them, whisper in the middle of the night, “I love you” then lay a sweet gentle kiss on her eyes, embrace her in my warmth and watch her fall asleep like a baby.

I have seen her there for me. We will make a new world, make a new life, always to say to each other whenever you need, it will be me.

I only saw the golden arrow, piercing my heart, that was not all, it also had the tinge of venom, jealousy and the horror of losing her…I would wake up in the middle of the night, all sweating with the dream which I never wanted to come true, but it was a sign for me, as it did come true…

My tears did not melt the heart which my smile won over, my true words did not reach her, we were apart…I spend sleepless nights, I still cry, I have this shackle in my heart that make me hate her for leaving me, but then I cannot hate her, I miss her essence, her smile, her eyes, and mostly when I close my eyes I still see her standing and whispering, “I love you.” Oh the pain, it does not let me breathe, it make my heart shrink…

I don’t know what more to do, I try to overpower the anguish, but the night leaves me alone, and I am back at square one…someone somewhere …if they know please call out to the wind, and tell her, I want to hold her again, I want the love, that is now never to share.

I still want to be remembered, not for what I have become, but as the smile that spreads on the lovers lips when the first kiss send shivers to the spine, I want to be the first light that paints the sky with astonishing colors, I want to be remembered like the first touch of the newborn, I want to be the speech that flows out of the mother, when she holds her baby, I want to be remembered like the smell spread by the bud when it blooms to a flower, I want to be remembered like the first flatter of the wings that the butterfly makes…

I want to be remembered….after all they say, “When you love someone, they remain in the heart forever and ever.”